My dear heart,
I, your old father, know that your field of study is tough and deep. As a Tibetan saying goes “nothing is difficult if man does possess perseverance”. So, you have to work hard. “If you can't fly then run, if you can't run then walk, if you can't walk then crawl, but whatever you do you have to keep moving forward.”(a Quote by Martin Luther King Jr) “During the time of your study, you have to endure the pain and difficulties so that you will become something great.” (a quote by Sakya puntita Kunga Gyaltsen)
In the past, many great monks of Labrang monastery have had real experiences of inserting their keys in the lock after they came from their all day long serious study (listening to the great masters and debating with peers) and forgot to enter their rooms till the day-break of the next day because they were too deeply absorbed into the deep Buddhist philosophy. In those periods, they did not have modern facilities which you enjoy at the moment. But after many years of their hard work, they had earned the highest degree of Geshe Lharam and Snyakram. In addition, I heard that when a western scholar asked His Holiness the Dalai Lama where he studied to become such an unparalleled scholar, His Holiness responded seriously but in a humble manner that I have studied in the three great monasteries, Sera, Drepung and Gaden, of Tibet which startled others. I tell all these things to remind you that you have to endure and work hard after all.